Monday, August 27, 2012

A Triumph?

I had a follow-up appointment with Dr. G last week to discuss the results of the testing that I had for ADHD. Apparently, according to the neuropsychologist, I don't have ADHD. Bullshit, I say, I know myself better than that, but I wasn't going to fight with Dr. G because it wasn't her tests and she wasn't the one interpreting said tests. She's put me on Celexa to help with the anxiety and the depression. She also referred me to a free-type clinic that I hadn't heard of before, since I'm losing my insurance at the end of September, so hopefully I can get in there soon. She also wanted me to go to some type of therapy that I've never heard of before. I don't remember what it is right now so I can't even look it up; perhaps tomorrow I can, during breaks.

I then had another follow-up appointment this morning with the neuropsychologist that tested me. I was so anxious about it I barely slept; I mean, I really disputed the negative-ADHD results. Granted, it's been a while since I was last tested, but the doctor who last tested me was a specialist in his field for far longer than the current neuropsychologist has even been in his. I wanted to give him a piece of my mind, tell him I thought he was full of shit, but at the same time I didn't want to come off as hostile and generally crazy. So I got up super early this morning after a horrible night's sleep, got myself to the appointment, and was about to give him the ol' what for, when he got into his analysis.

Apparently, the results were actually inconclusive, as my anxiety level was so high that it skewed the results. His recommendations were pretty much the same as Dr. G's, so all I need to do now is try to get into both places.

So, no meds to help with the ADHD. Boo. Whatever. The Celexa takes at least a couple of weeks to kick in, too, so it'll be a while before I even know if it helps. Here's hoping it helps, because I'm getting pretty sick of this bullshit.

Monday, August 20, 2012

A Case Study in Stupidity, part 1

(I say "part 1" because I know there will be more rants in the future)

So pretty much the whole world has at least now seen The Hunger Games and/or read the books. It’s quite a fascinating take on a dystopian future, though I realize that the subject material isn’t everyone’s cup of tea (what with children killing other children and such). Now, when the movie came out, I hadn’t read the books yet (I wouldn’t for a few more months until I received them as a birthday present) but just watching the trailer and from the buzz online I caught the main drift: dystopian future, kids fighting each other to the death, blah blah blah.

I had been following that buzz for a hot second, so I was eager to see what my friends thought of it once they saw it. Pretty much everyone’s take on it was very positive. Everyone but one person.

This friend – whom I shall refer to as M – saw the movie right after it came out. She hadn’t read the books, so she went into it fresh. She didn’t like it. Now, there can be many, many reasons why a person doesn’t like a movie, but her reason? She didn’t like premise (kids killing kids). My reaction to that was something along these lines …


Um, okay, remember at that point I hadn’t read the books, hadn’t seen the movie, and was only going off of the buzz I’d read on the internet and the trailers for it. Even just watching the trailers alone I got the gist of the whole dystopian future and children fighting each other to the death. So my brain had a little implosion at the apparent stupidity of my friend. Seriously, just watching the trailers alone should give you the idea of the movie so you should be able to tell whether or not you’d like the premise. My question, of course, was, “Why the hell did you waste your money and your time to go watch a movie that you should have known you wouldn’t like in the first place?” Did she even watch a single trailer? Read any of the buzz online? If I’d been a cartoon character, I would have a giant, “WTF” floating over my head along with an exasperated sweat drop ala anime. I’d known her in high school, I swear she wasn’t that stupid back then. Did she have a traumatic brain injury sometime in between the time she graduated and we lost contact until the time I added her as a friend on facebook? Or does she just simply live in a black hole where no information from the outside world can reach her? Or is she just willingly ignorant and will go blow money on a movie when she hasn’t seen the trailer or read any of the buzz?

I don’t know, but I honestly can’t feel sorry for her if she’s that stupid.

Lesson of the day, kids: before you go to the theater to watch a movie, at least watch one goddamn trailer to see if you are interested in the premise. If the answer to that is no, don’t waste your fucking money and then go complain about it on facebook. You’ll look like a complete fucking retarded-ass buttmunch who couldn’t find their ass with a roadmap if their life depended on it, just like M did. And then someone will inevitably vent about it on a blog. She should just be thankful that, in order for me to remain anonymous, I can’t expose her (though she would definitely deserve it).

The sad thing is, I know that she’s probably not the only person that did this.


Some days you want to just shoot yourself in the head because you don’t want to live in a world with this much stupid, but then you realize you’d just be eliminating another voice of reason. Don’t eliminate that voice of reason, there are far too few of us left.

Monday, August 13, 2012


I went into the weekend with every intention of doing the blog post I planned, but shit kinda happened. Stressful shit. Not going into details, but basically I was trying to get in sleep whenever I wasn't trying to stop myself from going into a full-blown anxiety attack.

I shall try next week. Hopefully everything will calm down by then.

Monday, August 6, 2012

Update on the hiatus

So the internet at my apartment is definitely done for, at least for now. :( Since my Monday night class is a computer class, however, it will be my default posting time since I will be able do a blog post during a break. I may be able to get up to the school library at other times during the week, but I'm not going to count on that.

Of course, my lazy ass is now thinking, Great, I'm going to have to come up with blog posts well before I intend post them. You see, I'm a bit of a free spirit when it comes to posting ... I come up with an idea, write it out in the editor (usually) and then post it immediately. This whole writing it out and sitting on it until a deadline kinda puts a cramp in my style, but fear not, I shall endevour to post regularly.

Next week, I think my blog topic shall be on the most recent book series that has engulfed me, The Hunger Games, and why stupid people shouldn't go to the movies (trust me on this, it all ties in).

Until then, I bid you all adieu.

*Edit* Also, I almost forgot, I've now hit 100 page views! I don't know how many of those are actual people, but hey, whatever, that number still makes me happy. :)